I am back to my sadness and I’m not entirely sure what caused it. There are a few glaring causes, one of which makes me even more passive aggressive and I think with just cause, but it’s not the whole picture.
I am miserable at work and the fact I sit at a desk all day and stare at a monitor does not help me. Last night though my family asked me what kind of whale was in a commercial for a movie, and I was able to rattle it right off. I actually remember a lot about the large whales, not so much dolphins and porpoises but whales, like grey whales, humpback, et cetera. Maybe marine biology was my calling after all. I’m going to start reading my whale books and see what happens.
I don’t know where my life is headed and it terrifies me. Sometimes I think if I up and move somewhere i’ll be better and it will force me to shed this cocoon I’ve been living in. Then again starting over is not one of my favorite things. I wish I could get a peak of what I’ll be doing in a year. See my destiny and then do everything I can to make it as wonderful as possible.
Why do you always fight with me when I’m in a good mood?